BUFFALO CHIPS
©1996
A. Neil Meili
FOR DEBBIE AND HER DAD
Debbie Marshall (1953 – 1996),
and her father, Eldon*
… who taught me more about courage than I
have yet been able to learn.
(And for the two Donnas who were there for all of us)
*The title poem was written at their request in a
Hospice in Houston, in December of 1995.
CONTENTS
Buffalo Chips
Turtle Boots
Dances with Horses
Train Day
Premonition
Growing Stones
Old Wives Lake Massacre
Waves of Memory
Eagles
Henry Moore
Armadillo
My Cousin Wayne
Alberta Air
One Room School
Copenhagen Kid
Swearing Off
Ode to the Farmer
BUFFALO CHIPS
Lily pads floating
on the sea of prairie grass
Heat for the Tepees
or the homesteaders cabin
Nothing wasted in the West
And every boy knew
that a good sharp stick or a pointy toed shoe
would let you know
if one was just right, or still a little too new
And I’m here to tell you, that compared to a
good dry chip
meeting a West wind’s invitation
A Frisbee is a weak and poor, plastic imitation
TURTLE BOOTS
I bought a pair of boots one time
made from an old sea turtles hide
The prettiest boots you ever saw
but a little bit tight along the side
I figured it would only take a while
to break these babies in just right
and in the meantime at least I’d have
the pleasure of taking them off at night
Now a hundred years don’t seem long
to an old sea turtle, or his next of kin
but it appeared it was gonna take that long
to break those miserable damn boots in
I tried everything to ease that constant pain
I soaked em, I oiled em, I bent em, I boiled em
If anyone had suggestions, no matter how wild
I got out those boots and sure enough tried em
But those son of a guns just continued to pinch
I couldn’t get them to move 1/16th of an inch
wild thoughts of destruction started filling my
day
but the boots were to pretty I’d just give them
away
I gave them to my younger brother first
by logic his feet should be smaller you see
but after a month or so he gave them back said
he just couldn’t accept all that charity
So I gave them away to friend after friend
but I guess gratitude ain’t what it used to be
and the results were always the same in the end
I got those turtle boots back, but I mostly lost
the friend
and every time I got them back
I’d put them on and wear them a while
and never could figure how one pair of boots
could cause so much pain and still have so much
style
But I gave them at last to a chiropractor down in
Texas
and I didn’t get em back, so I expect he’s got em
beat
because if he can’t adjust those boots
he can always adjust his feet
DANCES WITH HORSES
And what is the poem of Rusty
who slips at full gallop and picks up all
four feet and sets them down sure on the next
dry spot
Of Lady still so afraid of wire she can buck
fourteen hours tired
if a four inch chunk should strike a hoof
And the dance of the wild mare in the corral
who kicks and one foot goes by on each side of
your head
And of the colts separated from the mothers flank
by a gunny sack in the face and a quick gate,
who turns a tight arc and comes back at you, and
you see it in the eyes and duck and he sails over
taking out the top rail
And you hear that your father gave you the first
compliment you’ve
ever heard by turning to the man beside him
and saying
“The damn fool will get himself killed someday”
TRAIN DAY
Once a week, once a week
they came from all around, all around
and swelled, and swelled, the size of our young
town
And the chugging grew, and the chugging grew
and the chugging grew, and the whistle blew
and all was new, and the children knew
But now the lines are down, all down
old folks and old dogs in the town
not a child nor a pup, nor a pup
and not one elevator up
PREMONITION
Carl Walenda used to say
He only felt alive
when walking the high wire
everything else was just waiting
Some rodeo cowboys feel the same way
for eight seconds on a good day
One day in South America
Carl Walenda checked his tie downs
something he never did
He went up on the wire anyway
and he fell
After all those years of butterflies
it’s hard to tell
which is the black one
GROWING STONES
Each spring on our farm
the old father sun turned up his warmth and
charm
melting the frost deep in the heart of the mother
earth
The
egg babies
thereby created
rose to the surface
to play in the open air
mischievious miscreants all
waiting to jam diskers and drills
and if they get a little grain to hide in
ambush swathers, combines, and oil pans of
grain trucks
so we had to gather them into
school bus stone boats and wagons and haul
them off to places where they could be with their
older brothers and sisters on the reform school
rock pile
there is still some hope
that someday they can learn to be pillars of the
community
OLD WIVES LAKE MASSACRE
THE LEGEND:
About a hundred and fifty or two hundred years
ago, in what is now south west Saskatchewan, a
band of Cree camping on the shore of a prairie
lake were surrounded by a much larger band of
Blackfoot warriors.
In order to save the lives of the young and strong,
they slipped out under cover of darkness while the
old and infirm stayed behind to keep the fires
burning and keep up the appearance of an
occupied camp.
When the Blackfoot attacked the next morning
they were furious at having been tricked in this
way and massacred all the remaining inhabitants
of the camp including all the old wives.
This unusual and powerful occurrence is
remembered to this day in the name of the lake.
I grew up and ranched along its shores.
OLD WIVES LAKE MASSACRE
THE POEM:
I have eaten the beef
that ate the grass
that grew on your unmarked graves
And the sadness I sing, I sing for you
for all the sadness is one sadness
all pain one pain
and all treachery one treachery
Many have eaten of the buffalo and the beef
They wake in the night
and do not know why they are sad
WAVES OF MEMORY
I was sailing into waves of memory
as I drove to my boyhood home
To find that some heavy breakers
had turned to light light foam
Here I walked for miles in freedom
and my home was warm and real
And here my good dog saved me
from coyotes tender meal
Here all my innocence was known
And most of it shattered too
As I remembered what people said
and then what they might do
I thought that I could face those waves
with the things that I now know
But I was more than a little surprised
by the strength of the undertow
EAGLES
I watched them glide and wondered
Do the eagles see the air
I know of course that I can
When there’s enough moisture there
But I was thinking about something extra
Like how a dog can hear high notes
And I can feel you from anywhere
When there’s enough moisture there
HENRY MOORE
Henry Moore was a smart old cowboy
a smart old cowboy was he
Just as sly as a fox
he bought twenty foot salt blocks
and set them out in West Texas in winter
Where a thousand tongues
changed those basis hard foods
into a bunch of reclining nudes
There are time when it bothers my conscience
to see
them hangin around London,
New York, and D.C.
Then I remember old Hank is one of the boys
just suckerin some dudes with these toys
So I decide not to chip off the bronze
THE ARMADILLO
The armadillo lies
in the center of the road
with his feet in the air
The shell on his back
for centuries over used
caused his spine in the neck
to become somewhat fused
So that when he hears
that danger is near
he has to leap and turn
to cover his rear
And if that sound is the front of a car
he leaps into a sudden marriage
of armadillo and undercarriage
So he lays on his back and he waves his feet
a warning to travelers from far and near
about the dangers of old fear
and old ways of dealing with it
MY COUSIN WAYNE
When Wayne was thirteen
he had the finest blonde hair
the finest features and the finest mind
of all the cousins round
A city boy and cooler about everything that all of us
until we took him hunting
When his first shot hit the rabbit
he ran and cried and held it till it died
At eighteen he quit school with A grades
a month before graduation to get a jump on a job
met a girl and bragged of achievement on first date
Over achievement it turned out to be
quick marriage, quick, two children three
Army for security, liquor for the pain
it was twenty years before I saw him again
He was in a bar
sitting there as coarse and thick as adobe brick
I wanted to roll it all back
reach in for the lost fineness and yank it all inside out
And hold him like the rabbit when he cried
still innocent when it died
ALBERTA AIR
(a song still waiting for the music)
Alberta air, Alberta air
You’ve gotta breathe
that good Alberta air
It rolls in over the mountains
it rolls out over the plains
it smells of age old glaciers
and brand new gentle rains
it’ll cleanse your heart of worries
and wash your soul of pains
for there’s a world of love and kindness there
feel it blowing through your hair
Alberta air, Alberta air
ONE ROOM SCHOOL
There were seven students and eight grades
With the inkwells covered to save the braids
The first day of school
the boys all rushed through the door
to fight for the seats
with their father’s initials carved thirty years
before
At recess there were garter snakes, and gophers,
and mice
Which girls who were being chased, and teachers
who had just opened desk drawers didn’t think
were so nice.
At recess you could get on the big teeter totter
on the North side. If you could get high enough,
long enough, you could get a bobbing glimpse of
one of the big boys, had outstretched for the
well deserved strap.
In winter the pot bellied stove was set up in the
back center of the room. How warm you were
depended how close you were to the back. The
teacher didn’t always teach from the front of the
class.
There was big tin shield five feet high around
the stove to keep us from burning ourselves
although it got hot enough itself to do a pretty
good job.
Any lapse in supervision added to its decor as
we melted our wax crayons into modern art on
its silver sides.
It was always great to hear the lessons
meant for other ears than these
and to sting the older kids in spelling bees
In those days outdoor toilets were cricket
and so was the game we played
with firewood for posts
and baseball bats
for bats.
THE COPENHAGEN KID
I didn’t kill a b’ar when I was only three
but I did start to chew before I was two
They say Copenhagen cowboys have a tendency to lie a
bit
usually it’s how young they started and how far they can
spit
Now I ain’t got many silver buckles to brag about
but this is for sure and without a doubt
I’ve got the record when it comes to snuff
for the earliest and shortest, addiction to the stuff
Now my memory’s a little foggy but the legend’s quite
clear
that somewhere between my first and second year
My daddy leaned over the crib to kiss me goodnight
with the can in his pocket not sittin too tight
It seems form the beginning that I sure liked the stuff
and, in no time al all, ate that whole box of snuff
Legend doesn’t tell my exact shades of green
but I hear there were some that had never been seen
Though out behind barns and sometimes in bars
I’ve tried cigarettes and a few good cigars
Still when folks pull out that old round can of thar’s
all my color comes back and they think I’m from Mars
SWEARING OFF
This story was told by my old friend Bill
about a time when he was four
well maybe a little less, maybe a little more
Seems he’d been rubbin up against some boys in town
and learned some language that made his Momma frown
His folks tried about everything from soap on down
but the lessons they were pouring just wouldn’t stay
down
Finally they said, now Billy my boy
the decision we’re makin gives us no joy
Because generally we like you, and you’re pretty good
with your chores
but there’s no room on this ranch for language like yours
So, though it’s sure to make us grieve
we’ve packed your bag, and you’ll have to leave
They peeked through the curtains as he walked down the
lane
with Dad remindin Mom that some lessons have pain
Billy stood at the road for 20 minutes or more
then slowly trudged back and knocked on the door
They slipped from the window and opened it slow
he said
“where the hell am I supposed to go?”
ODE TO THE FARMER
No one will be surprised by the report
that farming is a very dangerous sport
What flapping empty fingered gloves
point back to momentary lapses
What limbs with what power
have been taken off by
power take offs
What tendons snapped like glass
and bones cut clean as grass
by unthinking mowers
And what of those neighbors dead and true
who for a minute forgetting what they knew
through red machines combined
with their grain
All these have earned his dusty tear
and many a “who’s next” fear
Year after year, after year, after year
And yet deep in the soils of time
the seeds of his goodness are growing
While the world turns in slow seasons
And he will be ready
when at last they declare
a true war of poverty
and are willing to bomb with wheat
Back cover quote
“What the world needs
is a good Buffalo Chip poem”
-Eldon Gaunt
NEW TEXAS PRESS
AUSTIN, TEXAS
ISBN 1-8906360-1-0